“Mr. Weinstein Will See You Now” (NSFW)

Every now and then, I feel like I need to cry. However, that doesn’t always mean that I can.

Growing up, I was taught that crying not only makes you weak but that it’s somehow “bad.” My emotions were outwardly suppressed (which possibly played a role in me developing a couple mental illnesses, including Borderline Personality Disorder… but that’s another story for another time).

For years now, my therapist has been working with me, trying to teach me that crying isn’t only OKAY but sometimes NECESSARY. Thank god for that, because I’m an incredibly sensitive person, and it’s really hard work for me to suppress emotions. Funny enough, every time I cry during therapy, I get an imaginary “gold star.”

Nevertheless, there are times when allowing myself to cry is still really difficult. It’s not that I’m not feeling the emotions that should lead to a good cry — it’s that I still convince myself crying is wrong, so then I feel like I’m “bad” for doing so.

One of the ways my therapist has suggested I work at overcoming this is by watching sad movies or tv shows, or listening to sad music… all of which is not a challenge for me, because I often find myself weeping (when I allow it) at certain commercials.

I’m an empath, through and through — an emotional sponge. I feel what other people are feeling. I suck up the energy around me. It’s not always pleasant being this way, but it does make it easier to cry. I often coax myself into crying for my own reasons by first crying for other peoples’ reasons.

I say all of this to share something that never fails to make me cry. It’s a music video from my favorite musician, Amanda Palmer, as well as Jasmine Power.

“Mr. Weinstein Will See You Now” was written and filmed a few years ago, around the time the “Me Too” movement was at its peak, when thousands of people all over the world all came out and spoke up about the abuse and assault they had endured at the hands of those in some form of power. It was an amazing and beautiful thing to live through and witness, despite how gut-wrenching the news was almost every day.

The Mr. Weinstein in the song’s title refers to Harvey Weinstein, a media mogul against whom dozens of accusations were made at the time. The most common thread in almost all of the accusations against Weinstein involved young, ambitious women who were simply looking for their big break in show business. Weinstein was enormously influential and had the power to give these women what they wanted, but… he often forced them to exchange sexual “favors” (aka: he assaulted and raped them) in order to help them achieve their goals. (In March of 2020, Weinstein was sentenced to 23 years in prison, and he still faces additional charges in Los Angeles.)

While Weinstein is the one specifically mentioned in the song’s title, he’s actually used as more of a symbol for all the powerful men who use their positions to their own sexual benefit and assault the less-powerful people below them.

It’s hard to keep count as to how many men were named in such allegations over the last three years.

This type of abuse happens all the time, everywhere.

And this song and music video embodies that.

For me, personally, the most gut-wrenching part is the depiction of the “after,” the rituals and feelings following an assault — crouching down, lying on the floor, crying, running from the scene of the crime… Seeing all of that portrayed by these women feels like a twisting knife in my heart every time I watch it. It’s powerful.

This music video makes me ugly sob.

Like I said, it’s my go-to when I’m struggling to let myself cry, because it works unlike anything else.

Be warned: the video doesn’t show any actual abuse, but it’s full of suggestions of abuse, and it also includes nudity (for the sake of art). If you’re uneasy about either of those things, maybe reconsider whether or not you want to watch.

Despite all of that, though, I would definitely encourage you to watch it. This is one of the most powerful pieces of art I have ever seen. It doesn’t just capture the “Me Too” era and moment in time, but it also captures the timeless and widespread nature of abuse, which has been suffered since the beginning of time. It happens constantly, and to so many, and this video captures that sentiment.

This is normally where I would say “Enjoy!” and then link to whatever it is I’m sharing, but it’s kind of hard to say that in this post. I mean, if you are looking for a good cry, I guess I could still say “enjoy,” but this video is painful.

It’s necessarily painful.

Because the video is considered “age-restricted” (which I think is dumb, but they didn’t ask me), I can’t embed the video — it can only be watched on YouTube itself.

CLICK HERE to watch the music video on YouTube

If you enjoy this video, you can help support Amanda Palmer and the art she creates by becoming a patron through the website Patreon. You can give as little as a dollar a month. Even small amounts help her keep creating beautiful works like this one.

Find her on Patreon here: www.patreon.com/amandapalmer

(Note: if you follow me on this blog, you will likely see a good number of “Favorite Things” coming from Amanda Palmer. I’ve been following her closely since about 2003, since I was only 14 years-old, and, 18 years later, she remains my most constant art love.)

Happy ugly crying, y’all.


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